Confession:
I started a blog because I really enjoy reading other people's blogs. It's a lot like watching T.V.-the pictures are colorful, the situations are relateable, and everything ends on a happy note.
Confession:
I know that real life isn't like that and I know that a lot of bloggers avoid the grittiness (i.e. interesting) of real life and focus only on the squeaky clean (i.e. boring). That is sooooo not me! To pretend that my life is always sunny and bright in my blog just felt dishonest somehow.
Confession:
A lot of bad things happened during 2009 and I felt like I couldn't express them here because I thought that blogs were happy places.
Don't worry...I'm not going to rehash all of the gory details of 2009, BUT i have resolved to be more real. If a blog is an online journal then everything should go into it...the good, the bad and the ugly. I've read a blog or two recently that do just that and they sort of inspired me to give it one more try...MY WAY! We'll see how it goes.
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Birthdays and Bullys
It has been so long since I lasted posted! Despite Kim feeding me post ideas (thanks btw Kimbo) I just haven't had it in me. But now I have a real moral dilemma and I'm hoping that by writing about it I will trust I have made the right decision.
My baby is sooooo popular!!! Yes that actually is my problem...in a way. Everyone is popular in Kindergarten. Everybody loves everybody! Ahhh don't you wish it would just stay that way? I swear I will not know what to do if (or should I say when) Bella gets bullied, cuz we all get if from time to time. Allow me to apologize in advance to the children who bully her, and their parents. Actually, I did mean to beat up your child, I don't take it back, but I'm sorry I left so many bruises! There that's out of the way! But now I've distracted myself. My problem is not bullying in the schools. Here's my problem. Bella was invited to 2 birthday parties on the same day at the same time!! Girl number one got her invites out 2 days before the other, but girl number two came to Bella's birthday party, and girl number one didn't. Bella will be so sad to miss either one, but she can't do both because Shane and I will be at work and can't be running her around town. So after thinking about it I've decided to send her to girl number two's party but get both girls a gift. Also, I have to admit, I'm afraid that girl number two won't have that many people show up because her invites weren't out first. I think I made the right choice. Didn't I? It became so complicated when Bella gained a social circle. Can't wait till middle school where everybody hates everybody! Big sigh...
My baby is sooooo popular!!! Yes that actually is my problem...in a way. Everyone is popular in Kindergarten. Everybody loves everybody! Ahhh don't you wish it would just stay that way? I swear I will not know what to do if (or should I say when) Bella gets bullied, cuz we all get if from time to time. Allow me to apologize in advance to the children who bully her, and their parents. Actually, I did mean to beat up your child, I don't take it back, but I'm sorry I left so many bruises! There that's out of the way! But now I've distracted myself. My problem is not bullying in the schools. Here's my problem. Bella was invited to 2 birthday parties on the same day at the same time!! Girl number one got her invites out 2 days before the other, but girl number two came to Bella's birthday party, and girl number one didn't. Bella will be so sad to miss either one, but she can't do both because Shane and I will be at work and can't be running her around town. So after thinking about it I've decided to send her to girl number two's party but get both girls a gift. Also, I have to admit, I'm afraid that girl number two won't have that many people show up because her invites weren't out first. I think I made the right choice. Didn't I? It became so complicated when Bella gained a social circle. Can't wait till middle school where everybody hates everybody! Big sigh...
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Yarn Is So CREEPY!
Kim tagged me. I'm supposed to name 6 quirky things about myself. I think this is really hard! I've been the Mayor of Quirkopolis pretty much my whole life and that seems normal to me. Other people would probably have a hard time stopping at 6 quirky things about me! Let's give this a try.
1. I am deathly afraid of balloons! But worse than balloons is YARN!!!!!!! It is so creepy. I cannot stress that enough!
2. I think the devil created cranberries specifically with me in mind.
3. I have a huge bald spot on the back of my head. A memento from one of my many hospital stays!
4. I love Dolly Parton! Seriously, the woman can do no wrong!
5. I hate to drive anywhere outside of Sanpete. White knuckles, sweaty palms, screaming, the whole bit. Sort of like that scene from the movie Clueless where Dion accidentally got on the freeway, that's me.
6. Everyone thought I was going to be really tall when I grew up. I have been 5" 2" since I was 9 or 10 years old.
Well, that actually wasn't so bad, like I said, narrowing it down was the hard part.
1. I am deathly afraid of balloons! But worse than balloons is YARN!!!!!!! It is so creepy. I cannot stress that enough!
2. I think the devil created cranberries specifically with me in mind.
3. I have a huge bald spot on the back of my head. A memento from one of my many hospital stays!
4. I love Dolly Parton! Seriously, the woman can do no wrong!
5. I hate to drive anywhere outside of Sanpete. White knuckles, sweaty palms, screaming, the whole bit. Sort of like that scene from the movie Clueless where Dion accidentally got on the freeway, that's me.
6. Everyone thought I was going to be really tall when I grew up. I have been 5" 2" since I was 9 or 10 years old.
Well, that actually wasn't so bad, like I said, narrowing it down was the hard part.
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
353 Days
For the most part our calender is extremely mellow. Other than the occasional birthday or crazy weekend, the Petersen household is a very laid back place to be. We have it planned that way, we don't entertain at home and we rarely go out. We have 2 wild days in October (my birthday and Halloween, the 2 greatest days of the year!) but our December is chaos!
I know, I know, "EVERYONE is crazy in December", you say. And that is so true what with family get-togethers, work parties and school functions. It's no wonder people get depressed at that time of year. I think my December is just slightly more crazy than most. Call it bad planning on our part!
Let me take you on a tour of December 21 through December 31 at the Petersen's.
December 21: Shane and Alese's Anniversary. Not a huge deal, but I do like to celebrate it.
December 22-23: Getting ready for Christmas. We all know how this goes. Quite frankly it's a bit of a blur sometimes. There's baking, cooking, cleaning, wrapping, scolding, threatening, weeping, wailing and gnashing of teeth.
December 24: Christmas Eve and Schianne's birthday. More celebrating. Lot's of unwrapping. Extended weeping and wailing and gnashing of teeth.
December 25: Christmas Day. This is the most mellow day of the week surprisingly!
December 26: Typically we have Shane's kids either coming or going. If they're coming it's more unwrapping. They usually hate what they got and so the weeping and wailing and gnashing of teeth (henceforth known as WWGOT) continues. Ah, the sweet sounds of Christmas!
December 27-28: Presents trickle in. Late Christmas /Early Birthday. WWGOT!
December 29: Bella's birthday. MORE PRESENTS! Very little WWGOT, she just loves being the center of attention!
December 30: We call this Birthday Part 2: The Sequel. We take Bella to a movie or out to dinner or something like that.
December 31: New Year's Eve. General Lawlessness and Drunken Disorderly Conduct! Ha Ha I wish! Bed by 9:00 PM Happy New Year! I'm Freakin' Tired!!
This year, with the advent of Kindergarten and the addition of tons of new friends, we have added one more day to the mix. We call it :
January 6: Birthday Version 2.0! Since Bella's birthday will always be during Christmas Vacation she gets her un-birthday after they go back. We have Bella's special day spotlight(I have to make a poster), cupcakes all around(I ordered those!) and after school, (what else?) a birthday party! This year we had a tea party and (I must be insane) I let them use my china to eat off of! It's all ok though, no casualties, the china made it and so did I!
It's been fun and crazy and I don't think I'd change it, but boy am I glad when it's all over!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
I know, I know, "EVERYONE is crazy in December", you say. And that is so true what with family get-togethers, work parties and school functions. It's no wonder people get depressed at that time of year. I think my December is just slightly more crazy than most. Call it bad planning on our part!
Let me take you on a tour of December 21 through December 31 at the Petersen's.
December 21: Shane and Alese's Anniversary. Not a huge deal, but I do like to celebrate it.
December 22-23: Getting ready for Christmas. We all know how this goes. Quite frankly it's a bit of a blur sometimes. There's baking, cooking, cleaning, wrapping, scolding, threatening, weeping, wailing and gnashing of teeth.
December 24: Christmas Eve and Schianne's birthday. More celebrating. Lot's of unwrapping. Extended weeping and wailing and gnashing of teeth.
December 25: Christmas Day. This is the most mellow day of the week surprisingly!
December 26: Typically we have Shane's kids either coming or going. If they're coming it's more unwrapping. They usually hate what they got and so the weeping and wailing and gnashing of teeth (henceforth known as WWGOT) continues. Ah, the sweet sounds of Christmas!
December 27-28: Presents trickle in. Late Christmas /Early Birthday. WWGOT!
December 29: Bella's birthday. MORE PRESENTS! Very little WWGOT, she just loves being the center of attention!
December 30: We call this Birthday Part 2: The Sequel. We take Bella to a movie or out to dinner or something like that.
December 31: New Year's Eve. General Lawlessness and Drunken Disorderly Conduct! Ha Ha I wish! Bed by 9:00 PM Happy New Year! I'm Freakin' Tired!!
This year, with the advent of Kindergarten and the addition of tons of new friends, we have added one more day to the mix. We call it :
January 6: Birthday Version 2.0! Since Bella's birthday will always be during Christmas Vacation she gets her un-birthday after they go back. We have Bella's special day spotlight(I have to make a poster), cupcakes all around(I ordered those!) and after school, (what else?) a birthday party! This year we had a tea party and (I must be insane) I let them use my china to eat off of! It's all ok though, no casualties, the china made it and so did I!
It's been fun and crazy and I don't think I'd change it, but boy am I glad when it's all over!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
Monday, December 22, 2008
Christmas Tag (this is one tag i can do)
Kim tagged me, which is good cuz I had been searching for something to write about. Here goes.
1. Wrapping paper or gift bags? Depends on the size and awkwardness of the item to be wrapped.
2. Real tree or artificial? Artificial, I'm allergic to real.
3. When do you put up your tree? When the mood strikes me, this year it was pretty early (December 2) but never never in November!
4. When do you take your tree down? Again, when the mood strikes me. The year Bella was born, it stayed up until February.
5. Do you like eggnog? Eggnog no, the rum you put in it YES! Just kidding, I don't like eggnog but I do love eggnog french toast.
6. Favorite gift received as a child? My barbie dream house totally! and my barbie camper, Jamey and I had so much fun with that thing!
7. Hardest person to buy for? My oldest sister Andrea, she is super picky and she already has everything.
8. Easiest person to buy for? Myself? Bella and Kim are pretty easy too.
9. Do you have a nativity? Yes 4 of them.
10. Mail or email Christmas cards? I don't do either.
11. Worst Christmas gift ever received? Can't think of one I truely hated. I had to start giving Shane lists if I wanted to get stuff I liked, but it is the thought that counts. I really mean that too!
12. Favorite Christmas movie? Hard one! A Christmas Story, Christmas Vacation, and The Nightmare before Christmas (Yes, it is a Christmas movie FYI!)
13. When do you start shopping for Christmas? Usually about the middle of December.
14. Have you ever recycled a Christmas present? I don't think so. If I don't like a gift I throw it away I don't give it away.
15. Favorite thing to eat at Christmas? All of it! I am a total slave to stuffing, though!
16. Lights on the tree? White.
17. Favorite Christmas song? O Holy Night. It reminds me of my mom and I ALWAYS cry when I hear it. Shane loves to change the words to songs and make them silly or dirty or whatever, but I told him if he ever does that to O holy Night I was filing for divorce.
18. Travel at Christmas or stay home? Stay home for sure! For 4th of July, Valentines Day, Arbor Day, oh hell, EVERYDAY!
19. Can you name all of santa's Reindeer? Duh! Who can't?
20. Angel or star on top of the tree? Star.
21. Open presents Christmas Eve or Christmas day? Both! I prefer to open presents everyday of the year but that almost never happens!
22. Most annoying thing about this time of year? I hate how it starts the day after Halloween. Come on People give us a chance to properly mourn the passing of All Hallow's Eve!
23. Favorite ornament theme or color? Just my ornaments from when I was a kid and the new ones I add for my kids every year.
24. Favorite Christmas dinner menu? Prime Rib, funeral potatoes, stuffing, corn and Mom's world class Pumpkin Chiffon Pie!
25. What do you want for Christmas this year? Books and I know I'm getting them cuz I ordered them!
26. Who is tagged? No one I guess this wore me out!
MERRY CHRISTMAS!
1. Wrapping paper or gift bags? Depends on the size and awkwardness of the item to be wrapped.
2. Real tree or artificial? Artificial, I'm allergic to real.
3. When do you put up your tree? When the mood strikes me, this year it was pretty early (December 2) but never never in November!
4. When do you take your tree down? Again, when the mood strikes me. The year Bella was born, it stayed up until February.
5. Do you like eggnog? Eggnog no, the rum you put in it YES! Just kidding, I don't like eggnog but I do love eggnog french toast.
6. Favorite gift received as a child? My barbie dream house totally! and my barbie camper, Jamey and I had so much fun with that thing!
7. Hardest person to buy for? My oldest sister Andrea, she is super picky and she already has everything.
8. Easiest person to buy for? Myself? Bella and Kim are pretty easy too.
9. Do you have a nativity? Yes 4 of them.
10. Mail or email Christmas cards? I don't do either.
11. Worst Christmas gift ever received? Can't think of one I truely hated. I had to start giving Shane lists if I wanted to get stuff I liked, but it is the thought that counts. I really mean that too!
12. Favorite Christmas movie? Hard one! A Christmas Story, Christmas Vacation, and The Nightmare before Christmas (Yes, it is a Christmas movie FYI!)
13. When do you start shopping for Christmas? Usually about the middle of December.
14. Have you ever recycled a Christmas present? I don't think so. If I don't like a gift I throw it away I don't give it away.
15. Favorite thing to eat at Christmas? All of it! I am a total slave to stuffing, though!
16. Lights on the tree? White.
17. Favorite Christmas song? O Holy Night. It reminds me of my mom and I ALWAYS cry when I hear it. Shane loves to change the words to songs and make them silly or dirty or whatever, but I told him if he ever does that to O holy Night I was filing for divorce.
18. Travel at Christmas or stay home? Stay home for sure! For 4th of July, Valentines Day, Arbor Day, oh hell, EVERYDAY!
19. Can you name all of santa's Reindeer? Duh! Who can't?
20. Angel or star on top of the tree? Star.
21. Open presents Christmas Eve or Christmas day? Both! I prefer to open presents everyday of the year but that almost never happens!
22. Most annoying thing about this time of year? I hate how it starts the day after Halloween. Come on People give us a chance to properly mourn the passing of All Hallow's Eve!
23. Favorite ornament theme or color? Just my ornaments from when I was a kid and the new ones I add for my kids every year.
24. Favorite Christmas dinner menu? Prime Rib, funeral potatoes, stuffing, corn and Mom's world class Pumpkin Chiffon Pie!
25. What do you want for Christmas this year? Books and I know I'm getting them cuz I ordered them!
26. Who is tagged? No one I guess this wore me out!
MERRY CHRISTMAS!
Saturday, December 6, 2008
Did I Happen To Mention...
I think I mentioned before, that, just recently, we moved back to Ephraim from Manti (living in Manti is a dark spot in my life and an entire post all it's own). But did I happen to mention how much I love my house? I LOVE MY HOUSE!!!!
I love my house. I mean, duh, we bought it. That's a pretty big commitment to make about something you only have lukewarm feelings for. Shane (and sometimes Alese) spent 10 weeks painting, sanding, varnishing and other assorted "ing's". It's not done, I suspect it never will be, but as big a project as it has turned out to and continues to be, I can't begin to tell you how crazy I am about this pile of bricks! I mean it's just a house, right? It shouldn't evoke such stong emotions the way it does. It's a roof and walls. It's over 150 years old, none of the rooms are perfectly square and it makes funny noises at night. But I have to say, I am in love!
Our original plan was to build a house. Sounds pretty simple, right? We even went as far as buying the land (it's for sale now, anyone interested in buying a chunk of the
American dream?). Then at the begining of this year construction prices began to soar and banks started getting jittery about giving money away. Since we pay so much in child support and alimony, and since I was honest with the bank about all of that (thanks a lot Honesty!), we soon realized that building would be next to impossible for several years (until child support and alimony are done basically). I HAD to get out of Manti. So, completely demoralized and devestated, we began to assemble Plan B. Buying a house. Turns out it's a lot easier to get a home loan than it is to get a construction loan. I started scanning the internet for houses in Ephraim within our price range. Some interesting prospects, but nothing that really felt right. Then our house came up for sale. I know this house. My mom used to live next door, which means so did I. It's my old neighborhood. We called that night. Walked through it the next day and 15 days later we owned it! 2 and a half years of planning to build resulted in nothing! 2 and a half weeks of planning to buy resulted in finally bringing me home.
I could never get a good feeling about building. It sounded fun and I wanted it bad, but it always felt so out of reach. The second we set foot in this house it felt like home. Fate is funny like that sometimes.
It's a great feeling. One that everyone should experience at least once in their lifetime. Now if you will excuse me I have to go clean my house! Until next time...
P.S. I LOVE MY HOUSE!
I love my house. I mean, duh, we bought it. That's a pretty big commitment to make about something you only have lukewarm feelings for. Shane (and sometimes Alese) spent 10 weeks painting, sanding, varnishing and other assorted "ing's". It's not done, I suspect it never will be, but as big a project as it has turned out to and continues to be, I can't begin to tell you how crazy I am about this pile of bricks! I mean it's just a house, right? It shouldn't evoke such stong emotions the way it does. It's a roof and walls. It's over 150 years old, none of the rooms are perfectly square and it makes funny noises at night. But I have to say, I am in love!
Our original plan was to build a house. Sounds pretty simple, right? We even went as far as buying the land (it's for sale now, anyone interested in buying a chunk of the
American dream?). Then at the begining of this year construction prices began to soar and banks started getting jittery about giving money away. Since we pay so much in child support and alimony, and since I was honest with the bank about all of that (thanks a lot Honesty!), we soon realized that building would be next to impossible for several years (until child support and alimony are done basically). I HAD to get out of Manti. So, completely demoralized and devestated, we began to assemble Plan B. Buying a house. Turns out it's a lot easier to get a home loan than it is to get a construction loan. I started scanning the internet for houses in Ephraim within our price range. Some interesting prospects, but nothing that really felt right. Then our house came up for sale. I know this house. My mom used to live next door, which means so did I. It's my old neighborhood. We called that night. Walked through it the next day and 15 days later we owned it! 2 and a half years of planning to build resulted in nothing! 2 and a half weeks of planning to buy resulted in finally bringing me home.
I could never get a good feeling about building. It sounded fun and I wanted it bad, but it always felt so out of reach. The second we set foot in this house it felt like home. Fate is funny like that sometimes.
It's a great feeling. One that everyone should experience at least once in their lifetime. Now if you will excuse me I have to go clean my house! Until next time...
P.S. I LOVE MY HOUSE!
Thursday, November 27, 2008
I Hate Christmas?
I am a bona fide Christmas hater! That's what I always tell my friends anyway, but dammit if something doesn't happen that puts me in the holiday spirit anyway. Without fail.
I used to really love Christmas, no grinchiness at all, but then my sisters and brothers started getting married and having families of their own. Every youngest of every family knows what I'm talking about! Your sibs start having in-laws that want some time too, so every other year they go there, then they start having kids and want to recreate some of the magic for them...so they stop coming completely. After a while I was left with just my mom, which was great, but not the same. I came to dread Christmas. There was no more breathless anticipation, no more magic.
I didn't understand that when you have children of your own you get your childhood back in many ways. I was 28 when my Bella was born and I finally learned that lesson. Like I said it still takes some coaxing, though.
This year Kim put some Christmas songs on her playlist. REALLY GOOD Christmas songs. Songs that reminded me of my mom and songs that reminded me of a really sad Christmas right after my dad died. I cried, of course (I usually cry while reading Kim's blog, in fact, it's my go to if I need inspiration to cry). And suddenly found myself in the Christmas spirit, funny how that happens.
I still hate Christmas! It takes away all of my edge!
I used to really love Christmas, no grinchiness at all, but then my sisters and brothers started getting married and having families of their own. Every youngest of every family knows what I'm talking about! Your sibs start having in-laws that want some time too, so every other year they go there, then they start having kids and want to recreate some of the magic for them...so they stop coming completely. After a while I was left with just my mom, which was great, but not the same. I came to dread Christmas. There was no more breathless anticipation, no more magic.
I didn't understand that when you have children of your own you get your childhood back in many ways. I was 28 when my Bella was born and I finally learned that lesson. Like I said it still takes some coaxing, though.
This year Kim put some Christmas songs on her playlist. REALLY GOOD Christmas songs. Songs that reminded me of my mom and songs that reminded me of a really sad Christmas right after my dad died. I cried, of course (I usually cry while reading Kim's blog, in fact, it's my go to if I need inspiration to cry). And suddenly found myself in the Christmas spirit, funny how that happens.
I still hate Christmas! It takes away all of my edge!
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